Long Distance Relationships

Ok, so I have been dating Julia now for 5 months, and let me tell you I have NEVER IN MY LIFE been happier. The only problem is that she lives 2 and half hours away from me. I'm here to tell you right now, that the distance sucks a lot but every time we are together we are more in love than the last time we were. It gets really, really hard sometimes being this far away from the girl of my dreams...I'm not going to lie, I have cried more in the past 5 months than I have in my entire life. We make it work though, we text constantly (I mean almost 200 a day) we talk on the phone a little bit, but most of all modern technology has provided us with video chatting. I live my life based on how often we get to video chat, and it is by far my favorite means of keeping in contact with her. Whenever I start to feel sad or lonely, all I have to do is call her up on video chat and she instantly brightens my life. It is nice to be so in love at such a young age.

Love, Life and Happiness...

OK, so is it bad to base your life around someone you love?

I, for one, think it's perfectly acceptable. On September the 9th at about 7:30 in the evening, Julia Strange walked up to me at the Howdy Party. I gave her a hug, you just thinking it would be any other hug. I never thought that one hug would change my life forever. I got to thinking, and pondering like I do about everything and I realized how awesome Julia is. On September 11th I asked her to be my girlfriend, even though she is in college I figured I would give it a shot. She came home that weekend to visit, and we went on our first official date. I fell in love, immediately I knew that she was and still is the love of my life. Long distance relationships are hard, but our time together is that of pure love. I accredit the way I feel about my senior year to her. She has shown me how to live, and think for myself. I love her with all of my heart and soul, every fiber of my being, every ounce of my passion. She is the one girl for me. Finding a love like this, so early in my life is awesome. I can't wait to spend a lifetime with this girl.

Weathering High School...through an existentialist point of view

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Sometimes I wonder if failing to re-appear from my own reality, is the only escape I can find from the disapproving looks. Being inundated with the only right way of doing things. Beseeching me with the correct way of living life. Re-appearance only brings me back to the hell I experience day in and day out, faced with the challenges and choices of my life. Disappearance means death, I don't want to die, failing to reappear does seem like a plausible option. Facing the hell I live with is not very enjoyable. I mean, everyone is different, right? What is good for one is not good for all, right? The belief system, that established these ideas in people is just not ok with me. I'm sorry but that just does not fly. I refuse to teach it to people when it says things like that. Everyone has to establish their own future, their own choices being faced with their own consequences. Until we decide the the consequence is just another choice we make. Submitting your will to some higher power? I just don't get it. Making my own choices, is hard. Everyone is a product of their own choices. Once everyone decides to make consequences a part of their life, a part of the choices the made.


You have to remember, not all consequences are bad...

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Now we must....
Digress, regress, and progress
Back into our reality
That we escape from daily
We use our books
We use our music
We use our love
To resolve our despair

Escapism is something
We practice daily
It's a common theme
In all of our lives

We descend into the dark
Repressing the light from our lives
To bring it out
We must escape
From our own reality

Creating our own reality
Using love as our primary foundation
Loving the books we read
Loving the music we hear
Loving the love we have



In the process of existentialistic escapism, I am trying to create my own reality. I am repressing myself from all I have known, to try and learn what else is out there. No longer following mindlessly what I used to know.


If you don't question...you don't live.

Today April, 6

This is a pretty cool little blog thing I will have more to write though as I can think of it, little spurts of wisdom. As for now though I must depart for my slumber.